How Far I Will
Go
My eyes don't stop seeing the waves that often ponder my view. See
small ships at the end of the ocean. If I were there, maybe the ship was a
thousand times bigger than my body. However, it cannot be overwhelmed as far as
this ocean. Suddenly my eyes flowed to the cheeks. I don’t know why that
feeling of appetite often appears in me. Am I weak? Am I scared? What makes me
cry? My eyes are tanned and falling on the waves of the ocean. This is the
first time I traced to see a calming sea of mind.
My feet step a
little by a little over thousands of sand. The waves often try to pull me to
the ocean. But I pulled and ran to a place that was not waves. I laughed
because I realized I couldn't swim if I was pulled into the middle of the
ocean. The wind of the sea shines in my face so that I look to the right. I saw
three children chasing on the sea. One of them laughed very strongly when two
of his friends fell on the sand. Finally, the three of them laugh each other.
How fun is I if I have mind like them too. Not linked in the problems that day
are getting heavier. I want to be like that kid. I hope I wake up from this
adult dream and become a child again.
Even so, all of that
is impossible to happen. Time will continue to walk and I am in the real world.
“Hanafi, let’s eat,” my mother’s voice called me.
I rushed to my
mother's place. Wow! I was surprised to see a delicious food. My family roasted
sausages, fish and chickens. Then, fried noodles and fried rice are also served
on the plate in white. I am filled with all the types of food. My grandmother gave
me a purple plate and asked me to sit down. I sit next to my grandmother.
Besides my parents, grandma is the second person who always supports me.
Grandma is very nice to me. Since I was 7 years old, I have lived with my
grandmother. While my other brother and sister stayed with my mom and dad.
However, I am still grateful that I still get the love from grandmother, mom
and dad.
“It’s all cuisine,”
I say smiling. We all talked until the sun was almost sunset.
“Beautiful sunset!”
Say my sister who is pouring water in the cup. Grandma also said the same. The
view of the sunset at sea is pretty unharmed.
“Are you mad? I failed the exam.” My
question to my mom.
My mother replied,
“I’m not angry, keep trying. There will be a good result later. Don't break the
spirit. Awesome!!!”
Listening to the
advice of my mom makes me smile. I failed in the final year exam. Sometimes I
think I’m not a nice son. However, my grandmother and mother always
enthusiastically to myself to try more. They always pushed me to be a good man,
that was better. I have no strength to succeed in academic. I often cry for not
being able to make my family happy, especially my mother, grandmother and
family.
After we finished
eating together, my mother invited me to a small booth. I saw the moon very
beautiful and bright. That's the full moon. After walking 200 meters away, we
both reached the small booth. I see many colorful flowers. The smell of the
flowers is also very impressive. Suddenly, my mother greeted me from the back
and gave me purple flowers. I was surprised and crying.
“These beautiful
flowers, the smell, I love it so much!” Say me.
My mother laughed.
There was another gift that mother gave me. The gift is in a purple small bag.
Why the purple color? Because my favorite color is purple.
“Open the gift,” Mom
said.
I opened the gift
and saw a small box in it. “Cloud” perfume by Ariana Grande. I had always
wanted to own the perfume but I couldn’t because there was not enough money to
have it. I can't tell how happy I was that night. I hugged my mother. No matter
what my thanks to my mother. My mother is a hero.
“I will take care of
this stuff well,” I say, hugging my mother.
Since that day, I
have been very active in school. I tried my energy even though I sometimes
almost desperately. It’s not easy on me, but I believe every effort will
certainly have the result. I finally got a good result during the SPM exam. I
cry happiness. I have got 5A. I am interested to be a teacher. That’s my dreams
since I was a child. I tried to apply for IPG application after getting the SPM
decision.
Although I failed to
enter IPG for the first time, I didn’t give up to try again. I worked for a
year as a chef in a café after failed the IPG. I had a lot of experience during
my work, and it was so fun. After a year, IPG application is open again and it
is time for me trying again. Finally, the second time I was accepted. My family
screamed happiness, including myself.
I was selected to
the IPG Kampus Pendidikan Islam. I'm very grateful. I believe, my trip will not
stop here. Here I will meet with a variety of challenges. My mother and
grandmother always adviced me to continue all the trips with positive. I don't
know how far I can go? But I believe I can do it.
Until now, I still
keep the perfume that my mother give it to me even it was 4 years ago, 2019. I
promise I will take care of that perfume until I finish my studies at this IPG.
I will also ensure my dream of dividing them through my efforts, work and smile
here.
